Music To Read To: Hate List

I started reading this last night and couldn't stop reading until I reached the end. It wasn't suspenseful or scary but I couldn't stop reading until I wad finished. It's a wonderful story of living with the past and finding redemption. A story of moving on and accepting what cannot be changed. I related to the story in a way I didn't think I would with the plot points involving the parents especially the father. I'm not sure I can really say I loved the book considering the subject matter but you can appreciate anything that can make you think about making life better. There is one quote in the book that really stayed with me:

"The word won being the past tense of win, and we can all say at the end of the day that we've won once again, can't we? Some days making it to the end of the day is quite the victory."

In a world where things are often out of our control making it to my bed is my daily victory. I get to life another day.

I am constantly creating soundtracks for things in my life. It's a geeky thing to do but I can't help it. I'm always thinking of a song that would fit a specific situation. It always happens when I read as well. My mind will immediately think of a song based on the current plot point.

 Here are a few songs that were played while reading Hate List:

Alanis Morrissette - That I Would Be Good

 that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy

Deb Talan - Comfort

If you can't remember a better time
you can have mine, little one.
In days to come when your heart feels undone
may you always find an open hand
and take comfort wherever you can.

Evanescense - My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

Oasis - Don't Look Back In Anger

So Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away
"But don't look back in anger, don't look back in anger"
I heard you say, "at least not today" 

Emma Lee - I Could Die Tonight

Truth be told I’m still just scared as hell
that I’ll fool the world and never fool myself
Cause I know living right it isn’t in the lyin’
But I could live with tryin’
I could live with cryin’
I could live with dyin’ tonight

The Smashing Pumpkin - Disarm 

Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone

The Weepies - World Spins Madly On

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on 

Music Monday: Elton John - Benny and The Jets

 

Say, Candy and Ronnie, have you seen them yet
But they're so spaced out, Bennie and the Jets
Oh but they're weird and they're wonderful
Oh Bennie she's really keen
She's got electric boots a mohair suit
You know I read it in a magazine
Bennie and the Jets

Today is my wife's birthday. She's not big on celebrating birthdays. It's just another day to her. But this blog is still dedicated to her. 

I chose Benny and The Jets because it always makes me smile when I remember her singing it. She first heard it in 27 Dresses and I love when she just sings "Be Be Be Benny and The Jets." I think those might be the only words she knows in the song but she sings the words who such affection and enthusiasm that makes me love her even more. 

Happy Birthday Nessa. I Love You!

Music Monday: Chantal Kreviazuk - Green Apples

You're toast and jam
And you are cotton candy
You're double rainbows
Beside a settin' sun
You're wood burnin' outside
There's a fire glowin'
You're sweet as green apples
You must be the one

When I first heard Chantal Kreviazuk's debut album I fell in love with this song. It expressed so much in such simple lyrics. But that was the point. Loving someone should be simple. Love is all the small things that we take for granted everyday. I always wondered what it would be like to have someone who reminded you of all the small joys in life. 

Right after I graduated from university I moved to my hometown of Campbellton and had planned to stay just the summer to make some easy cash and then head off to the rest of my life in Toronto or Halifax. But like most things in life plans change. It's like in romantic comedies when the main character realizes that what they want is right in front of them. I reconnected with someone I once had crush on and realized I still liked her. Luckily for me she felt the same way and we began dating.

I first realized I could be in love when I was in Montreal with some friends and a lot of little things made me think of her. I was there for a week and from the moment I left I just wanted to be back home spending time with her. 

This song always made me think of her and when we were engaged I wanted it to be our first dance but had to convince her. Luckily for me I got that chance. Nessa went to a girl's night with some friends and they were discussing each couple's song. Nessa had said we didn't have a song and when she told me the story I told her I considered this song to be our song. I told her how the song reminded me of her and how she reminds me of all the small things I love like standing in the wind and watching fireworks. Of course she rolled her eyes like she always does when I say sappy things but she also smiled her wonderful smile and agreed to let it be our first dance.

And since tomorrow will be three years since we first danced to this beautiful song as Mr and Mrs Mitchell I thought I'd share this song.

Here is an extra for those that are able to watch videos posted to my Facebook.

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=578290178#%21/video/video.php?v=64254405286&subj=515077335